Day Eighteen - Snatch

I woke up this morning, still hurting. First thing I did when I get to work was go down to the gym and see what Brent had planned for todays workout, to see if I could do it or not. It was a lot of the same exercises we did on tuesday, one specifically that I was sure that put me in this situation. Brent said too bad, be there! And there I was. There were only 3 of us in class today, so we got lots of special personal attention. We went along through the workout, and I was sore put pushing through. The one I thought that hurt me was towards the end, the dumbbell snatch. As soon as I did the first one, I knew that was it! That was the culprit! But I kept going. It hurt, but at the same time it was working it out too. For todays 'finisher', he had the other 2 girls sprint on the treadmill, I got more personal special treatment. He has these huge giant rubber band type things, he tied them together, then put one around his waist and one around mine. Then I got to try to run away, with his big ass as an anchor. I kinda liked it actually. Each time I tried to get further then I did the time before. I guess that is one way to make me run, he is smart!
I was also informed today that I will be in the boot camp class again when they start back up. This is the last week of his sessions, he is off for a week, then the next session starts. I was hoping to go back to basic training, I had no plans for boot camp! There is so much that is so hard for me to do! I dont really get a choice though, do I?

Tomorrow will be my third weigh in. I have no idea what to expect. I have not weighed myself since last friday. If I am not eating right and doing what I am supposed to, I dont bother to weigh and see where I am at. We will find out. I could gain 1 pound, I could gain 7, I have no clue what will happen.

Im attaching a link of good old Brent doing the exercise that injured me. He has all kinds of videos on his you tube channel, you can see all the crazy stuff he makes me do.

Day Seventeen - Ouch

I'm injured! Whatever I did yesterday during Brent's speed workout was not good for my back. I was probably doing something wrong. Sometimes my back is sore, but this is like real pain! I did not exercise today, he wasn't too pleased. It hurt to walk down there just to say I wasnt going to exercise, I was never going to make it on the treadmill for an hour.
I told him I was having a hard time with nutrition this week, he wants me to call or email him when Im feeling discouraged. I don't know. I'm just not that type of person. Id rather stew, and be angry than talk about it. I know this is not the right choice, but one step at a time here. It's bad enough I'm spilling it all here, and you want me to tell you how I feel to your face? I would die if he found this blog by the way.
I'm hoping I feel back to normal tomorrow, or at least somewhat for his workout.

Day Sixteen - Life is hard, food is easy

Great workout today! I love when we do stuff I can do. I hate stuff that involves getting up and down off the floor. Everything was standing today, I dig it. No crying here today peeps!

I still don't have my eating completely back together. I think I've eaten ice cream every day since Saturday. I'm clearly not going to make my goal by Friday, but that is ok. I'm doing what I can for the moment. I have been looking at a lot of different nutritional plans, seeing what works for other people. There is no reason why I cant make this work for me, I just need to find my flow. My mind says eat less, the world says eat more. I don't know. Really, its day 16, I shouldn't have to be thinking about these things. This should be the sweet honeymoon, but apparently my bones enjoy being covered in fat.
This is why I stop, this is when I say whats the point, this is when I wonder maybe this is just the way I am meant to me, and this is usually where I gain another 20.
Being fat is hard, losing weight is hard. Time to pick my hard, and I'm pretty sure I don't want the fat one.
Have I mentioned hate hard?

Day Fifteen - Do

Well, at least I exercised today. That's a step in the right direction. I feel so lost right now. Like something I put my whole heart and soul into has failed me, and I don't know where to go next. Pretty dramatic for one bad week out of a whole two, but that's how I feel. I'm going to start doing what I think is right this week, regardless of what Brent thinks. I think this may be a bigger project then he bargained for.
Pretty sure I am not going to make my 15lb goal this Friday, but Im going to keep plugging along. I did not get like this in a matter of weeks, and its going to take a lot longer than a few weeks to fix this. I just have to keep going. This is the rest of my life. There is no quit, there is no fail, there is only DO

Day Thirteen & Fourteen - Rogue

I've been under the radar this weekend, doing as I please. Not exercising, eating whatever, resorting back to the old Katie. Because of course, when things don't go your way, and you don't lose any weight, its best to lay around and eat crap. That always makes everything better....

Anyway, I'm back to the grind tomorrow. Back to work, back to exercise, back to salad and chicken.

Day Twelve - 1

I lost 1 lb today, .8 really.
That is what I worked hard for, that is what I exercised 9 times this week for, that is what I cried for, that is what I sweat for, that is what I jogged for, that is what I hurt for.
0.8.
That is all.

Day Eleven - Resurrect

Not a bad day today. A good workout with Brent actually, not easy but not too hard. My ankles are really hurting tonight, I hope its better for tomorrow. Tomorrow is weigh in #2, I have no idea what to expect. I'm surely not expecting another 5 lbs. We will see. I'm also going to tell him how hard this week has been on my body and see what he has to say.
In other news, we had a bad storm the other night and all my post its came down with the wind. Just a few were left. I've tried to resurrect it, but its not too pretty and keeps falling. I'm going to have to break out the tape and see what I can do. Hopefully there will be a few that I don't have to put back up tomorrow.
Going to bed extra early tonight, so I can wake up happy and ready for another week tomorrow.